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Ok, so, you know I don’t like to put out negative vibes, and I try to stay positive. 
I don’t want to “wah-wah” about my problems, but I also know that some of you are worried.

I’m going to try to keep this short, and uncomplicated- but it is complicated, and I hope you guys understand.
As many of you know, I was a volunteer in orphanages for many, many years.  And as many of you know, Kamikaze is adopted, and was an older child when we adopted her.  She has some “baggage” that she came with, most of which we knew nothing about until we got her home.  She has some problems, and we work with professionals to deal with this.  I cannot begin to explain the whirlwind of these past years. 

Yesterday, out of the clear blue sky, she had quite an “incident”.   I can’t really explain it, because it would be deeply personal, and because it would be really hard to explain, anyway. 
I’m sorry I’m being vague, but every once and awhile things just get really “intense” with her, and there is no way to describe the heartbreak and pain, the loss of words, and the helplessness that comes with these issues. They don’t pass quickly, and they take so much, it’s like someone vacuums the insides right out of you.  And all you can do is try to tread water until it’s over, then do damage control. 

Thank you, deeply, for your kind words, emails, posts, and comments.  I am at a loss right now, I don’t know what to do and how to “fix” this.  I know there is no “fixing” it, but as the mom, you really want to.

Please understand if the blog is a bit “spotty” for a bit.  I’m going to do my best.  This is far from over, and I appreciate your thoughts and prayers. 
Peace and love to you, as well as my gratitude,
Samantha

Comments

  1. My heart goes out to you, Sam. Kamikaze is lucky to have such supportive,loving parents. Your unconditional love is probably greatest “fix.”
    Sending lots of good vibes!

  2. Thanks all 🙂
    I’m really trying. This is so hard, I wish it were a broken leg or something that I could just get “fixed” (Not that I want a broken leg, haha) I just wish I knew what was wrong. And how to fix it- it’s beyond scary- if you could see these incidents or experience them, you’d never forget all the days of your life.

  3. Thinking of your family and know you can handle it.

  4. thanks for stopping by Mom to 2 posh lil divas.

    Just wanted to say that I am praying for all of you.

    It’s hard to deal with that which you were not a part of but you are showing your daughter the positive and loving side of the world now and know that you make a difference in her life and it is changing her for the better.

    The trials and tribulations may still come, it’s a long journey but it sounds like you are doing the right thing.

    wish you the best.

    Bernadette
    http://momto2poshlildivas.blogspot.com

  5. My heart goes out to you and to your daughter…know that my prayers, for your strength and guidance, are with you, that your daughters heart will soften and heal. Bless you all.

  6. I wish you the best of luck as you get through this struggle! It’s so hard to see your child struggle and I can imagine it takes quite a toll on you…hang in there!

  7. Samantha,
    Good Luck and my prayers are with you and your family. As hard as it may be, take one day at a time and try and stay positive.

    Cindy

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